I am not myself right now, not even in the mirror.

"If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change"
- Buddha

For the last week or so i have had such a hard time waking up and just being like "This is my life and i will do what i do and then die." Why live life if your mind is that single tracked? My mind is Bowen thinking about the way i am thinking, compared to the i normally think. Simple or complex. I am confused and if i had one wish it would be to know the meaning of life. If reincarnation is real, which i believe it is, why can't we remember things from our past lives, so ultimately we can become better beings. Learn from our mistakes and don't repeat them for eternity. Could it really be as simple as you live and then you die? or as complicated as a man making the world in 7 days and giving life? Or as hopeful as we constantly evolve in to different lives depending on the way we lived previously. Someone needs to care about this and talk to me. Someone needs to think.