i got to you there was nothing left.

Today i got a job that i can see myself actually wanting to wake up and go too. Which makes me overly happy because i hate working and really hate HAVING to do anything. Any I don't know what time i fell asleep last night because i was too drunk to close my eyes, i use to care when i was the drunkest girl in the bar and i would try to take it down a notch and now i just don't give a fuck what anyone thinks about me. If you like me, i love you, If you don't, then that's chill too. I'm completely unaffected by people lately. Its great. Tonight were going to the embassy and jack turns 20 and i am going to drink beer and stumble home whenever i feel like it. I'm so happy with my life. Last night i should not have texted you at 5am, but i was really drunk and wasn't thinking, lucky shortly after my phone broke so i don't know if you answered me or not. Which is good because in the light of day and with my thoughts sober you are one of the last people i can talk too.. still. I'm a pussy. I have been unbelievablly weak for the last little while, too the point where walking for 15 minutes exhausted me. It's upsetting. I'm looking forward to the next little while in a big way, Work, School, Life, I don't have time for part time friends and boys that are going to treat me like shit and it took me a long time to realize that. On a closing note to this pretty pointlessly long blog i LOVE Kyle Hoyyykooesssss for buying me beer and shots last night. hahah, Seriously though, he is one of the best people.