Fictional, but completely truthful..

This is drunken gibberish, this is the most gutting feeling ever experienced. His hips pressed in to mine as he tried to catch my gaze, i stared in the corner and said "im too tired." Some nights i lay so still, some times i hold my breathe.. I replaced my love for life with my love for sleeping. Opened my eyes just enough to see him staring at my slumbering body. I let out a deep breathe and rolled over. I felt his lips touch the back of my neck, felt water build up behind my eyelids. Its not that he isn't attractive, he is handsome in every way. Blond hair, strong upper body. Couldn't help but remember being yours..Couldn't help but wish i was in my own bed. Oh i just need to get some sleep tonight, I just need to feel full again.