I consider the possibilities, From one side of the spectrum to the other. One extreme to the other, In realty, I'm sitting smack in the middle, on the fence. But i need to be prepared to face any situation. It's not sleeping that turns me in to this, I feel like a zombie. Emotions will just have to come second to staying alive right now. Bullet in my head, axe in my neck. Heartless. Thoughtless. Breathless. The things i think about.. day dreaming all the time. I need my skin to heat up, I need my heart to beat faster. This only comes up after exhaustion.. I conquered every monster i faced, And they just keep getting up faster and stronger. I lay in my room with no music staring at my walls sometimes hoping that it will just get better, 10 years and waiting.. If you died tommorow, I wouldn't even know. That keeps me up at night if i let it.
1. Of all things i can help you with, this is it. You have to trust me, I love you, And i need you to smile. Everyone loves your smile, Everyone loves your heart, so fight as hard as you can and don't be scared to be scared.
2. I wonder about you sometimes, It feels so long ago that i could heal you. And it feels like it never even happen sometimes, Like a ghost in my worst nightmares, Like a shadow in well lit room. In doesn't make sense how i got so consumed, How in some weird way, i still am.
3. Oh the things i would do for you, You don't even know. Im crazy for everything you are.
