It could have been anyone and we would have reacted the same way. Because i don't want to go to party with weapons, hard drugs and sluts. Because i remember being 16 and i remember when the worst thing that would happen is throwing up because you drank one too many coolers. Sometimes i don't want to grow up and i don't want to get in trouble and i don't want to watch everything fall apart around me. And there was a minute, where all i could think was oh god im glad your not here, because if you would have been involved it would have gutted me, pulled my organs from my mouth. Because you are strong and i am weak. I thought about it more and more until i wa sure my brain was about to explode from my head and i saw him kiss her and i saw her look at him and i thought about you and oh god im glad you aren't here. I hate watching because i don't remember, makes me feel less then human and i just drink until i can't see the way you watch each others movements. My head is spilting.
Take the battery out of my phone, close the blinds, because i don't want you in my bed tonight, im too drunk, or grumpy, or something.
Im bummed out man.
