Im just trying to remain positive as of lately, And i get so tired of social situations, And i get so tired of the bad choices i know i am making. Everything needs the time it needs, So i figure i will grow out of this when i have learned everything i need to learn.
This morning at 9am, I was still drunk, So i was thinking, while he was sleeping and he held my hand and he held my heart and my lungs and mind and my soul and my eyes.
It feels like late October out, I wore a wool coat all day, I want to buy things. Big things. But i am a poor baby, And i want to not get strange sometimes, And i would be okay with a change because it's all changed so much already, and everything is where it should be -- kind of.
Last night, even though i was intoxicated, i got a chance to talk to some people i don't necessarily make an effort to speak to on a regular basis, And these people were still so loving and kind hearted to me, and this makes me think that i should make an effort to be as good as people as they seem to be.
Kelly is here so thats good, My eyes are super heavy, I get in to these moods, And i look p the prices of apartments in different cities and think of all the ways i could recreate....
I never wanted to be anything other then happy ever ever ever ever.
