I aint freaking i aint faking this...

I am failing at sleeping again, every night this week i have been up until 3am and still up by 8. Ugghh, I knew sleeping every night for a long time was too good to be. Its pouring rain, which makes me happy, i am going to wear my rubber boots. I need answers to the questions i can't ask. Is it true? Is it true? Oh don't tell me i am that naive. Because sometimes i think i need to know, and then maybe i can sleep at night, but what difference does it make? You did, you didn't, you probably did. It really torments me sometimes, and other times im just glad to be gone.