Creating beauty from dirt, and love from hate.

Of this much I'm sure, I am nothing without my best friend and my family, I feel sorry for people who don't have a friendship like ours, and a family like mine. I might get incoherently drunk, and say the wrong things, but all the little flaws i have, you have, my friends have will take us where we need to be. If it doesn't work your way, try another way, sometimes I'm wrong (more times then not) But i can't say i didn't try, and i can't say there wasn't a time where i didn't want those things more then anything in the world. The difference between want and need, And what i need right now, is love in my life, and a clear state of mind. This new found beautiful, "Believe me when i say i am okay" state of mind. I want to stay here forever, i don't ever want the heat to stop, and i don't ever want to be anything less then a free bird again. Its comforting to know were all too fucked up to understand why it hurts when we don't want it too. And that sometimes, things just need to fall apart to get better. I feel enlightened and I'm sorry this blog got so long, I just have have never thought i would start to think like this again. I live for the things that blow my mind and the people to inspire to me to think about little things and not how i am too weak to not crumble again. I just need to keep this positive outlook, because as soon as i let it in, It gets too deep to pull out and i feel myself begaining to rot. Its never just a flesh wound.