My legs are covered in dirt and i was only outside for 15 mintues, How does this happen to me.

The heat truly beings out the best me. Calms my tired mind, heals my weak heart. With age comes wisdom, and with pain comes strength. I am learning that right now. Weird how as soon as i come undone, something happens to make me get out of bed and want to be a working part of society, The sadness is gone, and my eyes are wider then they ever have been. Lighthearted fun, hold the deep conversations for the next time i am questioning existence. For right now, I am just glad i am alive enough to appreciate the life i am living, The people i love, and the freedom i wouldn't trade for the world. Sometimes the things you love are the things that kill you, But only if your scared enough to stay. If one person can change your entire world, then you changed mine, The bitter taste in my mouth is gone. Its in the back of my throat like a disgusting pill without water, but i can wash that away. Flushed from my system. Reborn. Rebuild. I have never looked at the world and seen so much beauty in a single leaf, in a worm, seeing all of downtown from a hill. The things that surround you, its all visual. Everything that goes up must come down, And the best part of having a hard fall is the way you pick yourself up after. What it does to you to when you think your going to stop breathing and die right there in your seat. Its the test you can't afford to fail. And I'm passing with flying colors.