I just read all my journals in order and laughed by myself for half an hour. I feel so great right now, i haven't read journals circa 05 in so long. It was right after i broke up with my first boyfriend (We dated for 6 months, i was 15 and it was the first time i ever even liked a boy that much) ANYWAY feels fantastic to remember being smashed in to the ground, thinking it would never happen again and i would never ever meet another boy, having it happen again, thinking it would never happen again and now just knowing it will. Welcome to being a teenage girl. It feels so good to have emotions sometimes. Feels good to grow up. Feels good to know trails come and go. I FEEL SO FUCKING GREAT RIGHT NOW. haha
And were going camping this weekend for sure with Laura and Erin, so that should be good, Well will be good.
I have been in the best mood for the last few days, and remembering things makes me feel even better. I LOVE LIFE. LIFE LOVES ME.
I don't care about anything that doesn't invovle the people i see weekly, Money, lurking and being rowdy. I am the happiest i have been in a long time, I need to start seeing through the day to day bullshit and remembering that. Im only 19, of course life is going to kick my ass sometimes. IM ONLY 19. I have the rest of my life to be a growen up, so im not going to pretend to be one now. Babes, Sorry i get so negitive. I will try harder.
