If drinking do not kill me, then i don't know what will.

Today is a new day, And im sure i will find something new out and i will learn and try to grow and maybe i could teach you something so you can learn and try to grow too. And since i make poor poor choices followed by awkward goodbyes and i can't stand another night in your one bedroom apartment cause i can't imagine another meaningless look that makes me feel ---

Never mind.

I miss last winter, I guess -- Sort of. Watching blizzards from my work, My apartment on mushrooms, Slipping all over the place, Your eyes? Its all in this stupid rhythm, the pattern. Did i-- Did i -- Didn't i -- Did you? -- Didn't i -- Wait -- Im confused. I found you and you found me.

"Didn't you get hit by a bus?"

No.. it was a car, and no, for the last time i was not drunk.

WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE?

Im generally grumpy and unhappy these days, For good reason i would say -- I will feel better once i find a job, My body heals, And I have the money to smoke and eat and drink and do whatever else i want to do.

Positive progress, Negative side effects.

Im so sick of sleeping in the basement, But its too hot upstairs.

(1) don't do this to me.